I’ve been spending a lot of time looking at pictures between 2010 and 2011, and particularly around the time of ILSb in San Francisco when Master Chuck and I completed.

What I’m not sure anyone from my title class realizes is that I lost a whole bunch of weight starting in January 2010.  I had hit 306lbs – the maximum I had ever weight in my life, and the second time I had hit over 300lbs.

The first time I hit 300, I got myself to hovering regularly between 278 and 285.  This is what I looked like when I was 285lbs at a Rams Run:

This is what I looked like at ILSb hovering around 262lbs.

Between the pressures of 2011 and with all the travel I did in 2012, some depression issues I had after my first trip to Uruguay, and generally being exhausted, I’ve not been working out and while I’ve not paid detailed attention to what I’ve been eating, I’ve been somewhat cognizant of what I have been eating.

I’ve not stepped on a scale for about, oh, I think 14 months since I hit that 259lbs – my lightest in 16 years – at my doctor’s office.

I stepped on a scale tonight at the gym – and I sure as heck hope that it’s completely wrong.  It read 294lbs.

I look nothing like that 285lb man in the picture above – definitely smaller; and I’m definitely not the 262lb man in the second picture – definitely bigger.  I figured I was about 275lbs – and that may still be true. The gym will definitely hear it if that scale is that far off.

I would say most of the weight has happened since I got back from Uruguay – looking at pictures from Uruguay, I was definitely smaller, and the jeans I have been wearing this week were considerably looser.

Either way, I want to get this under control:

• I will go and find another scale to weigh myself on just to really be sure
• I figure it’s about time I switched gyms.  I like the pool at my current gym, but I really dislike the crowded space of the equipment on the gym room floor. Also while the cruising is hot at that gym, it’s distracting me from what is truly important.  Sad to say, but it’s true…
• My back issues that have been hounding me for the past year since my trip to Nicaragua, and even the chronic pain I’ve dealt with for years seems to be mostly under control.
• The depression and self loathing, while not totally a thing of the past, is not as strong as it was.
• I’m going to look into personal training.
• I want that confidence in how I looked and felt during the summer of 2011

Good news is, I’m back swimming, I’ve checked out the new gym and I have a food programme that worked for me in the past.

So what does this have to do with Leather?  Well…

• It’s true my leathers are pretty tight on me, so either way, if I want to fit back into my leathers properly, I’ve got work to do.  I spent more than enough of my earnings on those.  I need to respect myself that way.
  
• My being a healthy boy means that my Sir can push me harder.  YUM!
• My being a healthy Sir (I do switch, and I am courting a boy and a cub currently), means that I can do a lot more with my boys.
• I have a whole wardrobe of clothes that I want to fit in to again, and some new pieces

And looking at a pic from this week versus July.. you know, maybe 30lbs is possible.  WOW.

Anyway – let’s see where I am by May.